today i went to the city with audzz, did my shopping and stuff, and then we went on to Myer right before we left..

Now, there's this girl, looks about 17-18, and she's handicapped, sitting in a wheelchair and busks for money.. she sings, and she has the most beautiful voice, and its really powerful too... i've seen her a couple of times, and everytime she delivers her songs with the most strength and professionalism, bringing joy to all.. today was no different.. we walked into the shop and i saw her sitting in the gap between the other shop and the one we just went to.. she was singing her heart out and being all happy, you could nerly feel her energy.. so we went about our business, then went to go out to the next shop... when i passed her, i glimpsed out of the corner of my eye that she was crying.. i continued to walk into the shop, because it didn't really register that she was crying, and when you cry, you're generally sad.... however, i felt something tugging at my heart. something told me i should go out there and check, so i rushed out. true enough the tears were rolling uncontrollably down her face.. she had no tissue and was trying anxiously to flick away the large tears falling from her eyes.. suddenly, i felt sad too, even though i didn't know what was wrong.. but to see someone go from such energetic merriment to a near state of devastation made me want to cry too..

so i rummaged around in my bag for a packet of tissue and went over to her with audz... even though she didn't know who i was she accepted the tissue and began to wipe her eyes. she smiled at me gratefully, and my heart warmed immediately.. i asked her what was wrong. she told us that some guys had stolen $20 off her, because it had fallen out of her tin... and they even had the audacity to pretend they were putting it back.. i mean it was at her feet!

i was struck with a sharp chord of sadness, i mean, to try your best, waste your energy trying to earn a little money to get by, and then suddenly lose all of it in one second.. so we comforted her, and a nice indian lady stopped to comfort her and console her.. she smiled gratefully at all of us and i'm sure audz and the nice indian lady felt happier too.. we each got some money out so that she got her $20 back.. she was running late to go home on the train already, so we decided we'd help her out a little. she thanked us, and we all left her to go home, slightly happier that we'd helped someone in need.. however, something did bother me.. what i noticed before going to help her, while i was rummaging in my bag for tissues, was that no one stopped to help her or ask her what was wrong before i did.. and she'd been sitting there for awhile.. and i noticed something else.. all the (no offence) white people, seemed to just ignore her, like she was a wall, or a pillar or something inanimate.. it's like they failed to realise that she was there, crying, in a near state of devastation. what's better was there was this white lady in a business suit just staring at her, like she had painted green stripes and pink spots on her face and blue hair. she was just staring, not even going to bother to ask her what was wrong, almost as if, she didn't want to go near her should her misfortunes rub off on her.. it was quite scary really, that these people, merrily doing their shopping or knocking off work, fail to notice their fellow human beings, who happen to be less fortunate than themselves. and probably being purely coincidental, the only people who bothered to stop and help this white girl were Asians... :/ no offence to anyone, it was probably just coincidental.. but some people have to learn to take in their surroundings better.. and help those who are less fortunate.. obviously you wouldn't want to go near a screaming drunk homeless man, because you know, he's just a little more dangerous than a singing teenager in a wheelchair.. this experience has made me want to do more volunteer work through CV in uni...helping someone less unfortunate sure puts a spark in my day.. i just really hope i can make someone smile every single day.. today, audz thanked me for making her smile for the first time in 3 weeks... you don't understand how glad it made me feel, that i was able to make someone smile today.. :) especially when they're going through such pain and hurt.. :( i just hope, everyone becomes more aware of others, and this world may somehow, fix itself..

11:50 pm ♥